Brenda

May 13th 2006

2006-05-26T21:41:15Z

I'm an alumna of UC Berkeley. :) Now it's time to look for a job, research grad schools, and possibly nursing schools :)

dreamwish @ 2006-02-16T20:47:00

2006-02-17T04:48:55Z

In 3 months I will be a Berkeley graduate!!! It's so damn close!!! I feel like I'm letting time go by and not really doing anything worthwhile. At this rate, I think I will be moving back to San Diego.

Long time

2005-12-21T00:12:52Z

Berkeley time is running out. Sooo scary.... next semester is all about learning more Italian, tuning my spanish, being a senior at the sorority house, going out with the girls, and most importantly looking for a job.

Big Bear
SD
maybe Disney

dreamwish @ 2005-12-04T20:54:00

2005-12-05T04:59:05Z

My toe is broken! :(

My first fracture.

ITALIA!

2005-07-10T13:29:17Z

I'm in Florence!!

dreamwish @ 2005-07-07T00:35:00

2005-07-07T07:06:47Z

Off to Italy in 9 hours!!!

sooo excited!

My boy informally pinned me!! :) *muuuuuah Te quiero mucho!

Summer

2005-06-09T11:03:40Z

I would have to say that tonight is the most random summer night thus far. Why? Well, tomorrow I have a rough draft due for my first essay in my second half of my R&C. Knowing me, I didn't start till like almost 1 am and finished around 2ish to find out that Matt (a mia floormate) invited Laura and I to beer pong downstairs. So I started writing and not doze off into space or the internet so I can finally meet my floor mates in the frat house (I'm staying in a frat house because it's cheap and it's the only place that would let me stay for only six weeks). Good times definitely good times with Laura and the guys from the frat "huts" and the second floor. I would have to say that beer pong is by far the best alcoholic activity. It's intense, there's laughter, praise, and encouragement. I like beer pong :) But this beer pong is definitely an alternation of the original because in the third round of "beer pong" we not only drank beer but we also took shots of skyy citrus vodka and oddly arbor mist. It was definitely a nice break or rather a stress break from my class. I know that shouldn't stress that much since it's a summer class and it's the only class I'm taking, but this class will either help continue to boost my gpa or sink it :( nonetheless I had good times. This is what summer is about... enjoying a break with people even if it's raining. I miss you.

dreamwish @ 2005-05-16T02:40:00

2005-05-16T09:41:40Z

So it's 2ish and I'm doing my take home final that is due tomorrow (today) at 12:30... yes it's bad :( I'm just glad that I end tomorrow (today). I would hate to have my last final on Saturday and start summer school Monday... bad bad bad. Now I have a couple days to bum around and take my time to pack before I start school again.
I have a feeling I will be lonely the first part of summer. Lolo decided to take the last 6 week session instead so I will be living alone in a frat house :( Eventhough Eddie will be here and taking the same class it will just not be a typical girl summer. It's going to be great being bums with mi osito and having that whole summer time, summer love with my boy but I've been used to all my girl summers. Oh well... we'll see what happens.
I really wish I could go home for a couple days before I go to Italy but it's just soooooooooo freaking expensive! Hopefully mi osito will drive south sometime during June to see his family, so I can see my family.

Alrighty I really need get back to that final or sleep so I can finish it tomorrow morning.

BEST YEAR

2005-03-29T08:57:25Z

2005 is the year for me!!!!

Studying what I like
Getting the grades
Job
Cancun
Italy
More involved
And the best of all....
*my honey* :)

Wasting time instead of studying for my finals

2004-12-12T19:52:53Z

You Are the Reformer

1

You're a responsible person - with a clear sense of right and wrong.

High standards are important to you, and you do everything to meet them.

You are your own worst critic, feeling ashamed if you're not perfect.

You have the highest integrity, and people expect you to be fair.

What number are you?

Perfect beginning for my Turkey break

2004-11-23T04:43:24Z

We beat Stanfurd!

We have a chance for the Rose bowl... just gotta beat So. Mississippi

Great scores on my Public Health Midterms

I'm the new Panhellenic Vice President of my sorority

I'm soooo happy with my guy

Lastly, I'm going home tomorrow!!!!!

dreamwish @ 2004-10-29T03:08:00

2004-10-29T10:09:43Z

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH! TOOO MUCH!

It's good times :)

2004-10-28T23:16:04Z

A pictures worth a thousand words,
but not worth the words I need to hear.
I miss you so much that it hurts.
And tonight,
I wish you were here with me,
so I could make you see.
The stars,
they lay across the sky so perfectly,
And they remind me of all the times
when we used to sit underneath them,
those summer nights,
And fall in love

Ah yes.... those were times of loneliness and unworthiness. But alas it's over! No more sad nights... only happiness! Thank you God :)

Ahora nesecito encontrarme. Nesecito ser responsable. Y lo mas importante no dejarlo que me haga sentir como la peor persona en el mundo. Porque me dejo caer tan bajo? Porque lo sigo haciendo? Que me pasa?

dreamwish @ 2004-10-16T12:08:00

2004-10-16T19:09:47Z

I'm happy :)

Beginning of Fall 04-

2004-10-10T20:55:29Z

tears, anger, deception, sadness, loneliness and repentance all which was brought up because of my stupidity. It was the worse time and feeling thus far in my life. All could have been avoided if it wasn't for my great stupidity which I will not get into here. College life has been a toughie for me not just academically but emotionally and spiritually. Everyone says "These are the best years of your life"-true However along with it comes the treacherous journey of finding yourself. I've constantly been searching for who I am not how others see me, think of me, or want me to be. Just ME! Constantly fighting with what I grew up with and with how I view things now..... just so hard. Am I good? Bad? Just another girl? Just another sorority girl? I don't know anymore and no one can tell me you're this or that because at the end it's up me- how I feel and see myself. Do my actions define who I am? People do say "actions speak more than words", right? I've done so much harm...

Another constant battle is the search of the butterfly sensation in your tummy. Sometimes I want to find the person who makes me smile every morning, who I look forward in seeing at the end of the day, who makes me laugh and who will never make me sad or break my heart. And sometimes I just want to be single and enjoy my college years/prime youth and be able to do what I want- maybe in fear of starting again. However this feeling of doing what ever I want has had its consequences- feeling empty inside. It's nice going out to party with the girls and finding dancing partners but unfortunately most guys just hump and grind. They don't even care how you look or what your name is- just show up from behind and hump. At first those sleazy guys can be attractive/tempting but you know at the end you'll get nothing more than a hump and crack in your heart... and when you think you have found a decent guy- you really found a man whore disguised as a decent guy. I should have learned from my first year that I should not expect too much from guys but sometimes I feel like I should. Why should I lower my standards to try to get a guy? I don't want to lower my standards anymore or feel that I should. And like a lovely lady said "I should no longer seek drunken kiss and no more will I settle for boys who refuse to hold hands".

This sums is up:
She was the third beer. Not the first one, which the throat receives with almost tearful gratitude; nor the second, that confirms and extends the pleasure of the first. But the third, the one you drink because it's there, because it can't hurt, and because what difference does it make?

continuation...

2004-08-16T04:58:56Z

continuation...
to Will's house. The drive up was great!! So many stars... After driving in circles and calling for directions we finally got to Will's house. We walked in the house and saw some people drunk, some passed out and some in the pool. The night ended with a couple swimming lessons from Tom, watching people shoot cans, and sleeping outside watching shooting stars.
We got up to the sounds of the dogs and birds chirping. We had breakfast all thanks to Will's parents and head out to the American river for rafting. Rafting was soooo much fun!!!!
It's the best summer day I've ever had! Sorry to some people that had to deal with me.

the end

Weekend

2004-08-16T03:03:32Z

Thursday was the last day of summer sesion and kick off for the weekend.

Soo Thursday night was hanging out time at Acacia with Greg and the boys.

I woke up friday morning with my eye SUPER red,itchy,and watery. So I went to the Tang center just to make sure I didn't have pink eye and thank God I didn't. After getting my prescription and finally getting my dad a phone I went to work. Work was bleh I think it was because of my eye so I left early. However that was not the only reason I left, I also left because I told Lolo I would go with her to find a swim suit. I got home and Lolo and I went to Ross and Target to find a swim suite for Saturday. While at Target Eddie calls me to ask if we were ready to go and I told him that she was trying to find one. Then he calls again and he's like
"we're outside your apartment" and I'm like "ummmmm... we're in target". I thought he would know that we weren't there when I told him she was trying to find one. I felt sooo bad because they were waiting for us to come back to go to Will's. There was just lots misunderstanding and that made it bad. So we finally got back to Berkeley, we packed our stuff and drove....

to be continued

dreamwish @ 2004-08-12T21:29:00

2004-08-13T04:31:10Z

Yay! Done with summer school! Now to enjoy my last week of summer. :D

dreamwish @ 2004-08-03T00:13:00

2004-08-03T07:14:29Z

"After a while, you learn the subtle differnce between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to understand that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head held high and your eyes open, with the grace of a woman, not with the grief of a child. You learn to build your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So you plant your own gardens and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and that you really do have worth, and that you keep learning. With every good-bye you learn. "

So beautiful...

The end of my summer is approaching.

2004-08-02T08:06:55Z

Let see... what has happened these past nine weeks

1.)Met Irish and Spanish people
2.)Started working for Cal Sports Marketing
3.)Got a new cell phone
4.)Shopping
5.)Planning Bid Day for Recruitment
6.)Re-format my laptop (2x)
7.)Got earrings in the mail from mommy
8.)Not remembering things:p
9.)Dyed my hair
10.)Having fun/chill times with Lolo and the Acacia guys

# 2,5,and 10 are the most frequent :D

I have two more weeks left of summer school... a week of recruitment camp and BOOM my semester begins with formal recruitment.

soo soon ....

dreamwish @ 2004-07-27T01:47:00

2004-07-27T08:50:14Z

I'm a dumb a$$!!!!

dreamwish @ 2004-07-23T14:29:00

2004-07-23T21:29:55Z

waiting....

no more stupidity

bleh

2004-07-20T07:32:39Z

Last thing before bedtime

*The \\*
Last Cigarette:	never
Last Alcoholic Drink:	pyramid
Last Car Ride:	1 hour ago, mario's car
Last Kiss:	mmmm
Last Good Cry:	two weeks ago
Last Library Book:	Spirits of the Ordinary
Last book bought:	fundamentals of physics
Last Book Read:	sociology reader
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	white chicks
Last Movie Rented:	calendar girls
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	damn
Last Beverage Drank:	water
Last Food Consumed:	cup of noddle
Last Crush:	last semester
Last Phone Call:	daniel
Last TV Show Watched:	Dr. Phil
Last Time Showered:	this morning
Last Shoes Worn:	comfy reef sandals
Last CD Played:	incubus
Last Item Bought:	chandelier earings and pucci shoes
Last Download:	juagares
Last Annoyance:	mmmm
Last Disappointment:	two weeks ago
Last Soda Drank:	nestea
Last Thing Written:	5 benefit statements
Last Key Used:	house key
Last Words Spoken:	good night
Last Sleep:	in a bed
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	rocky road
Last Chair Sat In:	my desk chair
Last Webpage Visited:	facebook
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dreamwish @ 2004-07-11T22:35:00

2004-07-12T05:37:13Z

I have a huge bump!!!!! :(

Never again!

:(

2004-07-04T03:18:13Z

I feel sooo unpretty and fat.